Thursday, July 5, 2012

Independence Day

I hope everyone had a wonderful 4th!  I also hope everyone spent some time reflecting on what Independence day means.  July 4th holds a special place in my heart for several reasons.  It was 12 years ago on July 4th that I locked my hair.  Even then I mused how symbolic is that?  I always viewed dreadlocks as a symbol of freedom (most people view it as a symbol of rebellion).  That was such a liberating day when I decided to loced my hair. 

I never viewed myself as a patriotic person.  July 4th was nothing more than a day off for me.  A day to rest and sleep.  That vision changed several years ago when I became keenly aware of what the United States Military does for us.  I worked for a company that "dedicated" a space to some Veterans and spending time with them really shook my belief to the core.  I had a new found respect for our service men and women and I have an even deeper respect for them now.

Fast forward to Independence Day 2012 - I made the decision to free myself.  I live in the land of the free and the home of the brave and I am far from free and brave.  I have created a jail cell within my mind.  My error thoughts hold me in captivity.  My wrong thinking, my fears, my concerns about what people think...all hold me captive.  Outwardly, I normally don't care what people think about me but internally I twist, shake, churn and worry.  The behavior isn't worth it.  The feelings and emotions aren't worth it.  I decided that I would shake off the learned behaviors that do not serve me.  In essence, I decided to free myself.  To claim MY independence from everyone and everything.

My journey has been a slow one with many setbacks but I've never been in a better place.  All my friends marvel at my growth (even though I don't see it).  I'm making my own decisions and mistakes and it's okay.  I have always loved people where they are but now it's amazing.  I am free enough and secure enough to allow people to make their own decisions and think their own's independence.

Be kind to yourself today...and do whatever you need to do in order to be truly free!

Lots of love!