Thursday, May 24, 2012

What's in your wallet

I know we are all familiar with this question.  It's all over the Capital One credit card company's commercial.  PLEASE NOTE:  I am not affiliated with Capital One nor is this an endorsement or sponsorship.

I often look at my wallet and I hope you do as well.  I'm relearning some important things and my lesson has been hard.  I hope my blogging can alleviate some of your lessons learned.  My wallet is often empty.  We have become accustomed to using our debit or credit cards and we very seldom carry cash.  My wallet has a myriad of cards, receipts and loose coins.  Kind of  a tragic end to the wallet.

I am learning that what's in my wallet is akin to what's in my heart and my mind.  I have been a student of metaphysics for many years.  Now, it works for me and has always worked for me BUT has it been as effective as I want it to be.  The answer to that is no.  I use the law of attraction to meet a need and it does BUT I have yet to see that windfall.  And this lack of windfall is what has led me to where I am and where this blog is today.

It has caused me to have a deep introspective look of who I am.  Two years ago I went through the ending of a almost 10 year relationship.  It was the best thing I could have ever done and I can't believe I hadn't left sooner.  I feel so much better about myself, my life and what's going on within me.  No more judgement, no more living under someone else's viewpoint of how life should be lived.  It wasn't the other person's fault - it was mine for not remembering who I was.  That part of my life is dead and buried and I'm grateful for the lessons I learned from it.

As I walk into the realm of change I have to stop and think.  I attend a 12 step program and we often say "if you always do, what you've always done, you'll always get, what you always got."  Recently I saw this added to it, "and you'll always feel, like you always felt."  POWERFUL!  One would think that this was common sense but sometimes something is lost in translation.  For me, I tend to stick with what's comfortable.  It's not necessarily right for me but it is comfortable (which explains why I stayed in a relationship as long as I did).  Comfort isn't always right.  :)

I am using the wallet as a metaphor for what we carry things in.  I could easily say "What's in your mind?  What's in your heart?  What's in your thoughts?  What's in your body?"  We carry so much "junk" with us and we don't realize it is junk.  We view as something that is a part of us.  We carry learned behaviors, learned responses, we like what we like because we were told to like it, we don't filter out the junk - we carry the worst within us.  I focus on the one negative thing and let it weigh me down.  I negate the wonderful things about me and obsess on my lack. 
It is time for me to think for myself and the goal of my blog is to get me to the next best feeling, not to worry about things I can't change and to live my life fully.  I will pepper my blog with my life experiences, my revelations and my changes.  If I can help motivate or uplift uplifts me.

I'm glad you joined me and I hope you stay for awhile...

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