This is the second time in as many weeks that this has happened to us. Today we have rain and beautifully frozen icy trees.
I always welcome time to be home - even if I am ill. I love being home. This is one of my goals...dare I say it? To be a housewife. There...I said it. Those would be considered fighting words years ago. It doesn't matter who doesn't care for my decisions and choices. It's what I want.
With all the wondrous women - stay at home Moms, housewives, work from home moms and wives...I think it is time we remove the stigma for those of us that want this type of lifestyle.
I work a very stressful job and honestly my profession can be a stressful one. Couple that with being engaged to a soldier that is not stationed in the same state I am in...coordination can become a beast.
Requesting time off - I have the time and in a perfect world I should be able to take it when I need to. My soldier deployed last year and I needed two weeks off. Never mind I get a month of vacation a year - one manager was besides himself that I asked for two weeks off.
Running a household alone - enough said
Running multiple households - enough said
What glorious freedom to be home. Saturday and Sunday do not provide enough time to run errands, clean and catch up. I do, however, subscribe to The FLY lady's way of cleaning and I do have things under control - or at least a bit better.
So today...I slept in, rested, entertained my neighbor, meditated, prayed, cleaned and organized. I even have time to study for my real estate test! SWEET!
Here's to staying at home...and loving it!
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Sunday, September 1, 2013
It's Sunday again...
It's the beginning of September. Where did the months go? I am very partial to September for several reasons. 1. September is my birthday month; 2. the weather begins to cool off; 3. the leaves begin to change and 4. we begin our descent into fall. I am a fall girl in every sense of the word.
I love Sunday and I sit here today musing at the fact that it is Labor Day and I'm excited. I have a day off! So what are my plans for my day off? NOTHING!
I am going to catch up on my blogging, vlogs on youtube, work on my natural hair, go through clothes, write a few review and spend time in meditation.
This morning I baked biscuits! Breads and sweets are my kryptonite. I love hot, fresh bread with good butter. I love fresh baked cakes, pies and cookies. It is a treat when I make home made goodies and I no longer overindulge but it is a meditative state for me and I need the nourishment from the act of baking as well as the act of eating today.
Hang on...as we begin our slide into fall!
I love Sunday and I sit here today musing at the fact that it is Labor Day and I'm excited. I have a day off! So what are my plans for my day off? NOTHING!
I am going to catch up on my blogging, vlogs on youtube, work on my natural hair, go through clothes, write a few review and spend time in meditation.
This morning I baked biscuits! Breads and sweets are my kryptonite. I love hot, fresh bread with good butter. I love fresh baked cakes, pies and cookies. It is a treat when I make home made goodies and I no longer overindulge but it is a meditative state for me and I need the nourishment from the act of baking as well as the act of eating today.
Hang on...as we begin our slide into fall!
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Twelve Steps..one step at a time
PLEASE NOTE: This post was drafted in September 2012. Things have really changed since then.
I've been in some form of 12 step program for four years. CODA, ACA and Al-Anon. I've worked the program. I've read the literature. These programs have helped me tremendously.
For the past two weeks, I've been assessing things. Let's rehash my two weeks:
I sat in my space at work and thought - I'm sandwiched between two little boys. They yell, they have rubber band fights, they throw rubber balls, they toss pens into the ceiling tiles and I'm tired. I am responsible for every single legal document that leaves our office and I need to concentrate. I was getting ready to send my Manager an email to ask for this office. This office has been vacant five years. Occasionally, someone will sit in it for a few hours (offsite staff) and we had an auditor use for a day four years ago. As fate would have it...I chickened out and didn't ask.
Monday I arrive to work to find my space flooded from a tenant leak. I figured...okay God..what is it you are trying to say? I presented my case and got the office or so I thought.
I ended up having to move back to my old space. I got a rather disturbing email from my Manager and I went into a spin. I was hurt, offended and angry.
I wanted to cry! I wanted to quit but I attended 12 step meetings and asked God what he was trying to tell me. The answer didn't come quickly but over a course several weeks - I realized it was time for me to move on.
Change...that is a hard topic with difficult ramifications. I hate change. I'm a Virgo - I need and crave stability. Even if it is bad stability...I need it. My previous relationship, my previous job (for that matter every job I have ever had) - I stayed much longer than I should have and needed to.
Last Christmas, I took off two weeks and stayed home with my fiance. We had a blast. I returned to work and the situation was still the same. I tried changing my approach, I let things go but I was still miserable. I had been in communication with a recruiter and I called her and within two weeks I interviewed. I had two interviews in one week and then a meeting with the Managing Director. I thought - how neat is this. The Managing Director wants to talk to me. We had a great conversation and before I returned to my office, I had a job offer. I talked it over and took it. Then...I had to put in my notice. While I knew it was time for me leave - I was a nervous wreck. Why? This job, was familiar and I had feelings of over commitment.
As with most things, I held off and held off and finally, a power stronger than me, propelled me into my Manager's office and I delivered my two weeks notice. The words flowed effortlessly and I didn't feel anything other than relief.
That was over three months ago! I am in a new industry, doing new things, meeting new people and loving my job, my colleagues and my life.
A little letting go...is all you need.
What's holding you back?
I've been in some form of 12 step program for four years. CODA, ACA and Al-Anon. I've worked the program. I've read the literature. These programs have helped me tremendously.
For the past two weeks, I've been assessing things. Let's rehash my two weeks:
I sat in my space at work and thought - I'm sandwiched between two little boys. They yell, they have rubber band fights, they throw rubber balls, they toss pens into the ceiling tiles and I'm tired. I am responsible for every single legal document that leaves our office and I need to concentrate. I was getting ready to send my Manager an email to ask for this office. This office has been vacant five years. Occasionally, someone will sit in it for a few hours (offsite staff) and we had an auditor use for a day four years ago. As fate would have it...I chickened out and didn't ask.
Monday I arrive to work to find my space flooded from a tenant leak. I figured...okay God..what is it you are trying to say? I presented my case and got the office or so I thought.
I ended up having to move back to my old space. I got a rather disturbing email from my Manager and I went into a spin. I was hurt, offended and angry.
I wanted to cry! I wanted to quit but I attended 12 step meetings and asked God what he was trying to tell me. The answer didn't come quickly but over a course several weeks - I realized it was time for me to move on.
Change...that is a hard topic with difficult ramifications. I hate change. I'm a Virgo - I need and crave stability. Even if it is bad stability...I need it. My previous relationship, my previous job (for that matter every job I have ever had) - I stayed much longer than I should have and needed to.
Last Christmas, I took off two weeks and stayed home with my fiance. We had a blast. I returned to work and the situation was still the same. I tried changing my approach, I let things go but I was still miserable. I had been in communication with a recruiter and I called her and within two weeks I interviewed. I had two interviews in one week and then a meeting with the Managing Director. I thought - how neat is this. The Managing Director wants to talk to me. We had a great conversation and before I returned to my office, I had a job offer. I talked it over and took it. Then...I had to put in my notice. While I knew it was time for me leave - I was a nervous wreck. Why? This job, was familiar and I had feelings of over commitment.
As with most things, I held off and held off and finally, a power stronger than me, propelled me into my Manager's office and I delivered my two weeks notice. The words flowed effortlessly and I didn't feel anything other than relief.
That was over three months ago! I am in a new industry, doing new things, meeting new people and loving my job, my colleagues and my life.
A little letting go...is all you need.
What's holding you back?
A Sunday Kind of Love
Sunday is my favorite day of the week. I know that sounds odd as it is
the start of the week and most of the world is faced with the sadness
that tomorrow is the start of the work week and that we are leaving the
weekend behind.
For some odd reason, I woke up with a sense of accomplishment and renewal today. I went through my closet (again) and pulled together items to freecycle and bless someone else with and items to sell on eBay. As I lose weight...I am blessed to be able to benefit in more ways than one - releasing the weight and blessing someone with my things that are too big for me.
I have also noted that I am doing something I hated. NESTING. When I moved in with my fiance - I didn't know how to nest. I was accustomed to living and working with what I had, what was given to me or what I was told to get/do. He gave me free reign over this house and I've been here a little over two years. I've been here with chipped plates, things that I didn't like, things that were here when I showed up, etc. I started giving away things and somethings just throwing away. I found dishes and glasses and washcloths. We were using washcloths from hotels that he/I had pilfered during our travels. Funny hunh?
I went through the bathroom closet and got rid of half full bottles of stuff I didn't use and my cosmetics are next. This clutter - these things that get pushed to the back, these things that no longer serve me...why do I still have them?
As I headed downstairs for my morning coffee...I packed some items up to be returned and spied my engagement ring. Laying on a box that was on the floor. The first thing that came to mind was appreciation. I have taken a gorgeous ring and have placed it on top of box of clothes I no longer want and have packaged up to send to my Mom and it's on the floor. I also noticed how I always tell people "I don't really like jewelry." I just shook my head. I am changing that thought right now. Last weekend, my fiance and I went to the jeweler and had my charms put on my bracelet. The jeweler asked me how I wanted my charms secured to the bracelet. As he told me the various ways and the preferred way - I told him not to worry about soldering the jump rings and that I probably wouldn't wear the bracelet more than a few weeks and then toss it in my jewelry box. He laughed and added them. Later on that night, one of the charms fell off. It was one from my previous relationship. This charm was from Provincetown, MA and I realized - I no longer needed that charm. It signified a time in my life that was over. I released it from my charm bracelet and lovingly placed it in a box. In time...I will sell it. This gives rise to why do we (I) hold onto things that no longer serve me. Quite a recurring them in my life...
These little things are thieves. I am aware of the thieves in my life - spending too much time on the computer, not getting out of the house on a beautiful day to just look at the messages my Higher Power is giving me, excuses, narrow-mindedness and words that I don't mean (just yesterday, I saw a beautiful bathroom set - the cup and a holder - they were made of heavy glass and the colors of our Master Bathroom and as I admired them - the sales associate made a comment about them and I said (without thinking) "Oh these are nice BUT my fiance would break them." After I said it...I shook my head...where did that come from. ::sigh:: a thief!
So I am grateful for:
realization - again
the power within
a beautiful Sunday morning
my engagement ring
my fiance
being able to give
the delicious pound cake I made for my ladies lunch today
fresh strawberries
safe travels for my fiance
a great cup of coffee
for the many ways of communication between my fiance and I
smiles and lots of love
wisdom
knowing that my Higher Power speaks to me through various channels
trusting and knowing that all is well
letting go
I am:
letting go/releasing all things that do not serve me
wealthy and prosperous in all my affairs
communicating my ideas and thoughts
joy personified
loving
I choose:
to see the good in everyone
to not judge
to allow others to travel their own path
to meditate twice a day
to create loving and healthy meals
to live my dreams
to see things through
to realize that my life is magnificent
to be worry free
to let my Higher Power direct my life
Until next Sunday...be well...be blessed and BE love!
For some odd reason, I woke up with a sense of accomplishment and renewal today. I went through my closet (again) and pulled together items to freecycle and bless someone else with and items to sell on eBay. As I lose weight...I am blessed to be able to benefit in more ways than one - releasing the weight and blessing someone with my things that are too big for me.
I have also noted that I am doing something I hated. NESTING. When I moved in with my fiance - I didn't know how to nest. I was accustomed to living and working with what I had, what was given to me or what I was told to get/do. He gave me free reign over this house and I've been here a little over two years. I've been here with chipped plates, things that I didn't like, things that were here when I showed up, etc. I started giving away things and somethings just throwing away. I found dishes and glasses and washcloths. We were using washcloths from hotels that he/I had pilfered during our travels. Funny hunh?
I went through the bathroom closet and got rid of half full bottles of stuff I didn't use and my cosmetics are next. This clutter - these things that get pushed to the back, these things that no longer serve me...why do I still have them?
As I headed downstairs for my morning coffee...I packed some items up to be returned and spied my engagement ring. Laying on a box that was on the floor. The first thing that came to mind was appreciation. I have taken a gorgeous ring and have placed it on top of box of clothes I no longer want and have packaged up to send to my Mom and it's on the floor. I also noticed how I always tell people "I don't really like jewelry." I just shook my head. I am changing that thought right now. Last weekend, my fiance and I went to the jeweler and had my charms put on my bracelet. The jeweler asked me how I wanted my charms secured to the bracelet. As he told me the various ways and the preferred way - I told him not to worry about soldering the jump rings and that I probably wouldn't wear the bracelet more than a few weeks and then toss it in my jewelry box. He laughed and added them. Later on that night, one of the charms fell off. It was one from my previous relationship. This charm was from Provincetown, MA and I realized - I no longer needed that charm. It signified a time in my life that was over. I released it from my charm bracelet and lovingly placed it in a box. In time...I will sell it. This gives rise to why do we (I) hold onto things that no longer serve me. Quite a recurring them in my life...
These little things are thieves. I am aware of the thieves in my life - spending too much time on the computer, not getting out of the house on a beautiful day to just look at the messages my Higher Power is giving me, excuses, narrow-mindedness and words that I don't mean (just yesterday, I saw a beautiful bathroom set - the cup and a holder - they were made of heavy glass and the colors of our Master Bathroom and as I admired them - the sales associate made a comment about them and I said (without thinking) "Oh these are nice BUT my fiance would break them." After I said it...I shook my head...where did that come from. ::sigh:: a thief!
So I am grateful for:
realization - again
the power within
a beautiful Sunday morning
my engagement ring
my fiance
being able to give
the delicious pound cake I made for my ladies lunch today
fresh strawberries
safe travels for my fiance
a great cup of coffee
for the many ways of communication between my fiance and I
smiles and lots of love
wisdom
knowing that my Higher Power speaks to me through various channels
trusting and knowing that all is well
letting go
I am:
letting go/releasing all things that do not serve me
wealthy and prosperous in all my affairs
communicating my ideas and thoughts
joy personified
loving
I choose:
to see the good in everyone
to not judge
to allow others to travel their own path
to meditate twice a day
to create loving and healthy meals
to live my dreams
to see things through
to realize that my life is magnificent
to be worry free
to let my Higher Power direct my life
Until next Sunday...be well...be blessed and BE love!
Monday, April 1, 2013
Busy...we are all busy
I wish I had more time to blog...I work feverishly in my journal but I need to at least check in once a week here.
We are all busy - I pulled a one pager from Souper Jenny years ago and it said "stop saying you are busy. We are all busy." I thought that was neat.
I do need to blog because my life has been amazing...I quit my job, found a new job, am in school, spent a week at home creating, a week in Germany and...got engaged.
I'm beaming...I am so happy. I'm doing my best to not get overwhelmed with wedding plans.
Bear with me...I'm bound to spend time talking about my up and coming nuptials!
For now...bright blessings!
We are all busy - I pulled a one pager from Souper Jenny years ago and it said "stop saying you are busy. We are all busy." I thought that was neat.
I do need to blog because my life has been amazing...I quit my job, found a new job, am in school, spent a week at home creating, a week in Germany and...got engaged.
I'm beaming...I am so happy. I'm doing my best to not get overwhelmed with wedding plans.
Bear with me...I'm bound to spend time talking about my up and coming nuptials!
For now...bright blessings!
Saturday, September 15, 2012
Birthday!!!
Tomorrow marks my 47th birthday! WOW! I don't feel 47 but then again, how is 47 "supposed" to feel?
A week ago, I developed a debillating migraine. Yes, migraine...not headaches. I've had a few headaches in my life time but what happened to me last week made me take notice. By Sunday, I couldn't see straight so I went to have it checked out ONLY after reading the metaphysical meaning behind migraines. Long story short, I was NOT trusting the Universe/my Higher Power to take care of me. That certainly fit the bill. I found my meditations and my meds and finally got rid of it the migraine.
So...I made no plans for my birthday. The repeated request from my beloved of "what do you want for your birthday?" "what do you want to do for your birthday?" I have no idea what I want and I do not want to aggravate my head by spending time at altitude flying BUT I have the wisdom to not be selfish and do something like prepare a meal. I am giving myself the best gift ever...TIME! I plan to allow myself to be treated like the Goddess/Queen I am and the one my beloved recognizes I am everyday.
So...I'm off to begin my birthday celebration!
A week ago, I developed a debillating migraine. Yes, migraine...not headaches. I've had a few headaches in my life time but what happened to me last week made me take notice. By Sunday, I couldn't see straight so I went to have it checked out ONLY after reading the metaphysical meaning behind migraines. Long story short, I was NOT trusting the Universe/my Higher Power to take care of me. That certainly fit the bill. I found my meditations and my meds and finally got rid of it the migraine.
So...I made no plans for my birthday. The repeated request from my beloved of "what do you want for your birthday?" "what do you want to do for your birthday?" I have no idea what I want and I do not want to aggravate my head by spending time at altitude flying BUT I have the wisdom to not be selfish and do something like prepare a meal. I am giving myself the best gift ever...TIME! I plan to allow myself to be treated like the Goddess/Queen I am and the one my beloved recognizes I am everyday.
So...I'm off to begin my birthday celebration!
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Do what you love...
As I am sitting here watching Julie & Julia...the passion in this movie excites and ignites me like nothing else. So often we go through the motions and never have or feel any passion.
No matter your path...no matter what you like...no matter what you do...pour yourself into it. LIVE! FEEL! BE!!!!
I cook and I'm a great cook...a new friend of mine heard about my business venture and bought me a Julia Child cookbook. I have to admit that initially I wasn't interested. My friend is a fabulous cook. When we retreat to her (and her husband's) house in the NC mountains, we are treated with homemade bagels, brownies so rich they melt in your mouth, roasted and succulent meats and the most heavenly pastries ever - always coupled with a cup of coffee. She advised me to watch Julia and Julie - I looked for it in Redbox but didn't see it and my local Blockbuster has closed. Last night as I was surfing the television channels - I groaned as the movie had 10 minutes left. I checked for more show times and found another showing. I am taping it so I can watch it again and again.
When I received Julia's massive cook book in the mail - I could think of several other cookbooks I'd rather have. I took the book to bed with me and read it. In that brief time, I remembered watching Julia Child on Public Television with my Mother. I remembered Julia's accent, I remembered my Mother flipping food (successfully for the most part) out of a pan and some of the recipes she made and I turned my nose up at them.
As I read - a brand new world opened up to me. I had severely dated Julia Child to the 70s. Aspic...really who eats it and why? Yes, there are several things in her book that I would never make BUT without a doubt, Mrs. Child was ahead of her time. She was passionate and efficient...the things that I seek.
Her cookbook was a lesson in passion for me...for my business and for my life...
For years I watched passionate people being passionate about everything from running to sports to music...but where was my passion? Quite simply, it had been murdered. By me and by anyone I'd let get close to my passion.
I made a pledge that I would go wholeheartedly into every task I could and would undertake...it's time consuming. Sometimes I get frustrated and angry. Sometimes I hate it and want to run away or blame someone else...anyone else.
When I passionately move forward things go better and go faster. Things look better and I develop more confidence to take on more things.
Never in a million years would I have tackled the projects I tackled - I painted my downstairs, I am organized, I took a class on organization and in one short month...I'm amazing. I made a bow for my new front door wreath. I bought cushions for my wicker chairs and didn't care if the colors weren't appropriate for fall...I liked them. I bought a pair of purple suede pumps...how's that for passion? I lost 35 pounds and am still losing.
What you love, being passionate and doing it - only need you and your time. I promise you - the journey to passion is easy once you take the first step. Ask yourself what it is that you love...then do it.
That is all there is to it..
Namaste!
No matter your path...no matter what you like...no matter what you do...pour yourself into it. LIVE! FEEL! BE!!!!
I cook and I'm a great cook...a new friend of mine heard about my business venture and bought me a Julia Child cookbook. I have to admit that initially I wasn't interested. My friend is a fabulous cook. When we retreat to her (and her husband's) house in the NC mountains, we are treated with homemade bagels, brownies so rich they melt in your mouth, roasted and succulent meats and the most heavenly pastries ever - always coupled with a cup of coffee. She advised me to watch Julia and Julie - I looked for it in Redbox but didn't see it and my local Blockbuster has closed. Last night as I was surfing the television channels - I groaned as the movie had 10 minutes left. I checked for more show times and found another showing. I am taping it so I can watch it again and again.
When I received Julia's massive cook book in the mail - I could think of several other cookbooks I'd rather have. I took the book to bed with me and read it. In that brief time, I remembered watching Julia Child on Public Television with my Mother. I remembered Julia's accent, I remembered my Mother flipping food (successfully for the most part) out of a pan and some of the recipes she made and I turned my nose up at them.
As I read - a brand new world opened up to me. I had severely dated Julia Child to the 70s. Aspic...really who eats it and why? Yes, there are several things in her book that I would never make BUT without a doubt, Mrs. Child was ahead of her time. She was passionate and efficient...the things that I seek.
Her cookbook was a lesson in passion for me...for my business and for my life...
For years I watched passionate people being passionate about everything from running to sports to music...but where was my passion? Quite simply, it had been murdered. By me and by anyone I'd let get close to my passion.
I made a pledge that I would go wholeheartedly into every task I could and would undertake...it's time consuming. Sometimes I get frustrated and angry. Sometimes I hate it and want to run away or blame someone else...anyone else.
When I passionately move forward things go better and go faster. Things look better and I develop more confidence to take on more things.
Never in a million years would I have tackled the projects I tackled - I painted my downstairs, I am organized, I took a class on organization and in one short month...I'm amazing. I made a bow for my new front door wreath. I bought cushions for my wicker chairs and didn't care if the colors weren't appropriate for fall...I liked them. I bought a pair of purple suede pumps...how's that for passion? I lost 35 pounds and am still losing.
What you love, being passionate and doing it - only need you and your time. I promise you - the journey to passion is easy once you take the first step. Ask yourself what it is that you love...then do it.
That is all there is to it..
Namaste!
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